shhhh…

Why can’t “I need you” be taken seriously? I hear it whispered in my mind, my heart beats with a gentle ‘come back, come back’. What is all of this longing for? I hide and hide my feelings until I fight. When did we start suppressing all of the things we feel? Telling ourselves that feelings need to be ignored, hidden, silenced? Even my most sincere emotions at times feel like blasphemy because that’s what I’ve been made to know… fact.

Conflict. It’s everywhere you look, it touches everything we do. Every relationship we have. Isn’t it funny how at the core all fights are the same. 2 people, yelling, accusing or running away. Two people doing anything to avoid from telling each other what they really feel. Just talk when you want to run, reveal when you want to attack. It’s so simple, so obvious. And at the same time so incredibly hard.

I get it now, why people don’t talk to each other. It’s intense. You have to be strong. Talking as a means of resolving conflict actually goes against every biological instinct we have. We feel threatened so we fight, or if we don’t have the stomach for that, we run. Sometime we fight because we are unable to tell the other person how we really feel.

‘Just talk when you want to run, reveal when you want to attack. It’s so simple, so obvious. And at the same time so incredibly hard.’

“The course of true love never did run smooth” – William Shakespeare

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“Look at me, he said to her. His arms and legs jerked. Look at me. You got your wish. I hav
e learned how to love. And it’s a terrible thing. I’m broken. My heart is broken. Help me.”
– Kate DiCamillo; The Miraculous Journey of Edward Tulane
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Be Love

It seems that lying, cheating, deception, and false pretenses are the norm these days. What is it that is pushing people to become less genuine? How much longer can we play with fire until we are a society of prevaricators. I want to trust, I seek to believe. I desire to see  the light inside of people, but it is hard when that light is sometimes just deception leaking from the core. I’ve camped out enough to know that fires burn. I have felt deception. I have battled with hurt, and lost on occasion.

Is it just me or does it become increasingly more difficult to be resilient when every experience begins to take the same course? I guess for me I will trust in my ability to believe. Belief in human nature, belief in humanity, belief in intervention and standing up for the rights of each other. My goal is to remain unchanged in my outlook.

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My heart wears a leather jacket, protecting it from a motorcycle crash.

With all of these liars, I’m surprised  it doesn’t break like a broken glass. – iamsohip

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I want you to know the truth
‘Cause I’ve been around before
Thought I was looking anymore

Been a fool for weeks
‘Cause my heart stands for nothing and your soul’s too weak
Got a will that’s been around for days
Goes far if you want it, it needs to behave

But then you, you come around, big mistake
I don’t want to know, I don’t want to know
We don’t need a sign to know better times

Running around ’cause you beat yourself up
And you made a crack and the one that you love is gone
How much longer can you play with fire before you turn into a liar?

I’ve been around before
Thought you weren’t looking anymore
But then we, we come and go, go up in smoke
I don’t want to know, I don’t want to know
We don’t need a sign to know better times

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“We are all in the gutter… but some of us are looking at the stars” – Oscar Wilde